Hopeless

I have been spending time with a broken heart lately. Hoping for love that has been avoiding me. The struggles of life grab hold of you like a boa constrictor that wants to devour it's prey. Having faith in God keeps you from wandering away from his plan. I will build a relationship with God that cannot be broken, but ony shared with those that he chooses for me to share it with. The dark hole in my heart that pierces into my soul is starting to be filled with faith, hope, and love. All in which I need to get through this circumstance that God has put before me. I will live by his word so that I may not falter in any way. Hopefully it was meant to be, maybe not. But, with God in my life I win either way, as long as I accept his circumstances along with him. He will reveal his true glory later on, so I have to just be patient as he works his miracle. Thanks be to God, Forever and Ever!

Weekends

Everybody works for the weekend except me. I alwyas am the one that is stuck working every Saturday, and Sunday. I wish that I had a weekend off where I could just go away, and maybe never come back. I would love to go somewhere far, far, away and maybe never even come back. I just want to be able to have a mended heart. Who knows if that can happen? Only more painful time will tell. It's just too hard.

Another Lonely Day

I sit up here in the office all alone. My wife is gone, but not forgotten. Will she ever return is the question. Everyone has heartbreak in their life, so I guess this is mine. Feeling so alone wondering where I went wrong, Hoping for some resolution in the near future, but for now it looks too distant. Love is fun until it breaks your heart.

nothing

It's six in the morning, and I'm heading to work. Haven't written a peer review blog because I wasn't at class that day. Hopefully Ms. Chizek, you recieved my email about my unforseen circumstances. Feeling, and being alone is probably the worst thing in the world. Well I have to go now. Everyone have a good day. I know that I won't.

Essay #1

I am blogging to talk about my essay paper that i plan to write. After deliberating with myself about all the possibilities of what I could write about I figured it out. I plan on writing about my first solo flight in an airplane. I want to reach out to people that let have fears, and they let them hold them back from following their dreams. I would also hopefully, help them to realize that they too can find self-reliability, and confidence in themselves when they have no choice. I overcame many fears that I had when I went for my pilots license.

One Flashlight

Some days you just wonder your duties for your life, other days you just know. Today has been one of the wondering days. Not knowing how to think, feel, or feel. It's as if you are lost into this dark room of your head, trying to feel the walls for a flashlight of purpose, and reason. Some people find it to be longer than just a day, others manage to find the flashlight in just one day. Today i'm still looking for that light that I ever so need. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!

I am a 29 year old from jackson, and I have been married for 5 years, and together for 8. We're just trying to get by one day at a time. I'm studying aviation management.

oops

I just accidentaly deleted my blog entries. I'm so retarded!